Sunday, February 01, 2009

CNY not over yet, but it seems quite dead to me for now.

Past few years back, I'm always hoping for CNY to come. I always love the crowd, the noise. Many people gambling, making so much noise, noise of the MJ tiles. Yg cousins running here and there, aunties gossiping.
Few years back, we always travel all the way to the east side to celebrate cny with relatives, eating steamboat tgt and gamble with our uncles. But this year, none.
Few years back, our house will be always full of red stuff, hampers, music of cny songs. But this year, none.

This year thou father side's relatives came over, but its so short period of time. Many sick, many work. CNY is more of celebrating and fun, but why am I not happy at all?
Thou this year spending time with dear and his family, why I'm still not happy at all?

Both of us were so busy at first, I thought during cny we will be more closer than ever. But why do I still find there's something blocking us again? Whenever I'm not happy, tell him, he still do the same mistake. Why sometimes he can't be more concern and caring at time and always being so st8. Yes, I know, we're so long afterall, but I always want someone to care for me. Not only st8 forward is care. But the use of words are also one of them.

I'm not being emo, just being unhappy at some things. K I'm down to bed as tml I need to work. 3 more days!